"The moonlight in front of you, will have frosted? Looking up, I found that it was moonlight, sinking again, and I suddenly thought of home. " This poem is a household name in the Chinese language circle, but no one knows that it is Li Bai's eternal heartbreak. 1000 years of misunderstanding, so that these sentences that were originally clear and correct go astray. In the moonlight, Li Bai bowed his proud head. The moon is an indescribable emotion in the hearts of China people; The first three sentences are very realistic, and finally Li Bai came up with a sentence: sinking again, I suddenly remembered home. For Li Bai, who pursues the fantasy of language effect, simple poems are rare.
Li Bai's poem
You see, on the frosty night, after Li Bai's temporary illusion, the feeling of depression and the change of years quietly welled up in my heart. However, where is Li Bai's hometown? Longxi? Is it Bashu? Or broken leaves? It is estimated that even Li Bai himself can't tell clearly. Then, under the moon, Li Bai's fragile heart was touched and his mind suddenly became unusually clear. This kind of sobriety should be sober after drunkenness: I am obviously a homeless orphan, but I have to think about my hometown. I wonder how many people in the world can feel this feeling, and who can feel this sympathy?
Where is Li Bai's sorrow? On the vast land of the Tang Empire, he was just a "refugee". The status of "refugee" has brought fatal harm to Li Bai.
Li Bai was famous for his public office when he was a teenager. Thanks to the emperor, he became famous all over the world. However, all these failed to solve the most fundamental problem-that is, Li Bai's life experience. Among the cultural celebrities in the history of China, it seems that only Laozi's life experience is so bizarre. Laozi's life experience is bizarre and understandable, but in the Tang Dynasty, when culture was at its peak, Li Bai's life experience was so foggy that it was incredible. Even 50 years after his death, when his granddaughter was still alive, Li Bai's previous life was already in a state of "squandering flowers and getting charming eyes".
In the text about Li Bai's life, the statement of Xuanzhou, Chizhou, who wrote Li Bai's epitaph, should be more credible. He is a good family of Li Bai and an official in Li Bais Tomb. Even if he met Li Bai's granddaughter, it would be difficult for people to restore a real Li Bai. First of all, "it is difficult to find a genealogy in a childless family", and then "make an appointment to cool the nine generations of Zhao grandchildren." How difficult it was in the last years of Sui Dynasty. One room is broken in the leaves, scattered and scattered, and its name is hidden. Therefore, since the country has come, it is compiled in the genus. At the beginning of the dragon, he sneaked back to Guanghan, because the overseas Chinese were from this county. Father and guest take the name of Ji Yi, hence the name of guest ... Gong Sheng, which also means that my late husband refers to Tian Zhi as a compound surname, and the first lady dreams of Chang Geng, and her name and words are taken from salt. "
This is the epitaph of Li Baigang 50 years after his death, but this passage is not like an epitaph in any case, and it is closer to the grotesque avant-garde novel, which contains many incomprehensible things.
Let's look at the origin of Li Bai's surname. It turned out that it was "referring to heaven to withdraw the compound surname", and it was both "referring to heaven", and its arbitrariness could be imagined ("heaven" was a plum tree, avoiding the royal family "Li"). Long-term omission, and now he has a compound surname. The latter compound surname is actually a national surname, and his father can also be said to be courageous; In fact, he also presented the flag of Liang Wangwu Chang (Li Yong). After a long time, Li Bai's father simply claimed that he was a direct descendant of Liang Wangwu, which was even more shameful. Because there was such a charge:
Pretend to be relatives. Look at Li Bai's father again. "The father takes the city as his name, so he takes the guest as his name"-this is obviously a name change. What was your name before? Li said: "(ancestor Li Bai) was innocent in the middle period, lived in exile and changed his surname." What do you mean by "changing your surname to your first name"? The literal interpretation is to change the surname into the first name.
Moreover, I intuitively feel that Li Bai, a fake uncle who was later recognized, may have implicitly called Li Bai's ancestors conference semifinals, because conference semifinals have names before surnames, which has nothing to do with the so-called "changing surnames into names". Fan's epitaph says that Li Bai's father "sneaked back to Guanghan at the beginning of the dragon" and gave birth to Li Bai. In 705, the first year of Cha Shenlong, Li Bai claimed and all insiders pointed out that Li Bai was born at 70 1. Obviously, Li Bai's father came back secretly after the broken leaves gave birth to Li Bai. Mr. Chen Yinque said in "The Clan Problem in Li Taibai": "It's really impossible for a one-yuan clan with a non-Han surname to suddenly come from the western regions and claim that its ancestor was exiled to the old territory of West Turkic by China at the end of Sui Dynasty." "Becoming a monk in the Western Regions is undoubtedly just."
These doomed that Li Bai was born with original life questions about where I came from, and the confession of his dead wife "dreaming of eternal life and telling me good luck" made Li Bai more confused about his life experience. In Fan's epitaph, there are still several puzzling places: First, Li Bai's ancestors were "anonymous", and it must be very difficult to change their names in the era of emphasizing whether to change their names. Correspondingly, there seems to be an article in his father's "Hidden Back to Guanghan". The word "hidden" shows that Li Bai's ancestors are unforgivable, so that they still live in the shadow of great fear after several generations. Li Bai's birth was the original sin. Perhaps the only valuable thing about this epitaph is that it affirms the fact that Li Bai's ancestral home is broken leaves. In this way, Li Bai's life experience became a confused account at that time. But it is such a muddled account that makes Li Bai's orphan status clear at once. To put it bluntly, Li Bai turned out to be a tramp, maybe not even a tramp-he is just the offspring of a fugitive! And may be the descendants of the conference semifinals fugitives! Fortunately, no one checked any identity cards or temporary residence permits in daily life at that time, otherwise Li Bai might be in big trouble. Who can guarantee that Li Bai will not be the first Sun Zhigang? Li Bai, who is careless, has no legal status, making the vast territory of the Tang Dynasty a prison for Li Bai everywhere. Li Bai's desire to make a blockbuster and soar to the sky stems from his primitive fear of self-identity.
The fear of self-identity and Li Bai's bluff about himself make Li Bai's life story a legendary novel. Faced with ambiguous life experiences, Li Bai began to talk nonsense. One minute he said that he was a cloth man in Longxi, the other he said that he was in Zhongshu, and the next he said that his ancestors were royalty. It can be said that the clouds are scattered, and the dragon sees the head and does not see the tail. So, there must be a shocking scam. Li Bai, including his uncle, and Li Ling of Xuanzhou dangtu county, who prefaced his Caotang Collection, are carefully hiding something. The people who wrote his epitaph are even more secretive, not mentioning Li Bai's family background. They conspired to turn Li Bai's family background into a muddled account!
Of course, the most sensitive person should be Li Bai himself. Li Bai was tight-lipped about his life story all his life, and the statement he had to make about his life story was irrelevant. Obviously, he feels guilty and is a bully is always a coward. Perhaps even the legend "My First Lady dreamed of Chang Geng" was a plan of Li Bai to save Zhao from Wei, and people are always more interested in illusory things than in the analysis of specific problems. Li Bai is an alcoholic and often has "100 poems about fighting wine", which may be one of the reasons why his preface is irrelevant. However, even though he was drunk, Li Bai still didn't tell the truth. It can be seen that even after drinking, Li Bai still maintains a high degree of vigilance and guards the bottom line of confidentiality. Li Bai, who likes to talk nonsense after drinking and calls himself Brewmaster, has kept his life secret all his life. There are only two conclusions. One is that Li Bai doesn't know, and the other is that Li Bai is unwilling or unable or afraid to say.
In this way, in full view, Li Bai became an orphan.
Li Bai is an orphan of an era and an orphan of the Tang Dynasty.
The mystery of life experience is fatal to Li Bai, and the biggest influence may be that Li Bai, who is keen on achieving fame, has to face the cruel reality that it is difficult to enter the examination room.
According to the description of the imperial examination in Tang Yaohui and New Tang Book, the imperial examination in Tang Dynasty was generally held once a year, and all the candidates came from two sources: after passing the prescribed academic examination, those who were selected by various academic libraries in the central and local governments and sent to Shangshu Province were called students (such candidates accounted for the vast majority, and Tianbao repeatedly announced that Juren had to study in imperial academy before taking the examination, and rural tribute was prohibited); However, the election is not called hometown tribute by museums and scholars, and such candidates are listed in counties (New Tang Book Election Record). After the primary election, these candidates went to Beijing as candidates, and the first procedure to Kyoto was to report to Shangshu Province. Relevant institutions in Shangshu Province (household department) review the identity of candidates, and the required items include the family status of candidates. Family status is a table of family status written by candidates, including native place and three generations' names. According to the old system of five generations living under one roof, if parents and grandparents die and don't move to be buried, the head of the main family may not seek career promotion, otherwise, the promoters will also be held accountable.
Therefore, the difficulty of Li Bai's situation can be imagined: Li Bai's ancestors were not officials with more than three grades, which determined that Li Bai could not enter a school like imperial academy and could not obtain the qualification of a student; Xianggong has only one way out. However, even rural tribute requires a clear family background. Li Bai's father "sneaked back to Guanghan", and his grandfather and great-grandfather must have died in another country. What about moving and burying? A trivial family matter is a natural disaster for Li Bai, and no one dares to vouch for Li Bai. Li Bai, a genius of heaven, lost at the starting line like this! It is not the shadow of a legitimate citizen, but the first half of Li Bai's life. The social status of Li Bai's "three noes" made him shout out a true accusation: "It's not that I gave up the world, but that the world gave up me!" Therefore, Li Bai said bitterly, "The road is as vast as the blue sky, but there is no way out before my eyes!" " It's just what Mr. Wolong said before he made a fortune. It can't be true. Li Bai's disdain for being an official seems to be the necessity of historical issues and the necessity of worshipping systems and rules. The infinite grievances and deep troubles in Li Bai's heart have just become an ignorant sentence in the history of later literature: Li Bai disdains to take the imperial examination. The word "disdain" wiped out all the grievances and troubles of Li Bai, and Li Bai's endless unspeakable secrets were gently washed away by later literary historians.
There is another piece of evidence. After Li Bai's father sneaked back, he "lay high in the clouds and didn't ask for Lushi." The "native place and three-generation name taboo" required by surnames cannot be fabricated under the strict household registration system. Li Bai's surname may reveal the possible identity of the Hu people! This may have exposed Li Bai's status as a royal relative, and it didn't hurt him much. Therefore, Li Bai's father is not "not striving for progress", but has no way to strive for progress. Li Bai's father chose "lying high in the clouds", while Li Bai chose the road of "doing"; "Lying high in the clouds" just reflects Li Bai's passion for fame. Where did he "despise" the imperial examination?
In this way, later literary historians created a hero who went against the trend.
The desire for fame made Li Bai give up his basic dignity, embarked on the road of "doing" Huashan and began the long March to destroy his personality. Every possible bureaucrat has become Li Bai's lifeline. Li Bai did not hesitate to praise and flatter many mediocre bureaucrats he could come into contact with. After hitting a wall many times, Li Bai changed his strategy and began to live in seclusion in Zhong Nanshan, and publicly declared that he was "invisible" in order to take the road of encircling the city from the countryside and finally achieve the goal of being an official. Unable to take the imperial examination, but expecting to get the direct benefits brought by the imperial examination, Li Bai spent his whole life just looking for an official approval.
Li Bai clearly conveyed his sad mood as an orphan of the times and an imperial refugee.
Facts have proved that Li Bai's shortcut to the south is also misguided after all. Not only is Li Bai's body waiting to grow old, but also Li Bai's ambition; Li Bai was alienated by his dream and paid a lifetime price for his cleverness.